Sometimes being a teenager makes you wanna die.

“sometimes being a teenager makes you want to die.”

I heard this phrase on AWKWARD and actually thought it was kind of powerful.

‘Cause really,sometimes as a teen you do want to die – without even concidering the awful and sad effect that it’d leave on your beloved ones,friends and all other people who care about you – because sometimes,just sometimes it gets too much. It just does.

I’ve been there,I’ve felt that.

And you know what,I try and try to go on and pretend like I never think of those things – knowing that I would never be powerful enough to cut my own life like that – but in fact,I do. Everyone does,from some point!

I am sick and tired of feeling the way I do and I feel like that pretty much every week, at least once. You see,the funny thing is,it does get better. You know how they say “time heals” but what they don’t tell is that when it does get better,there will eventually come that moment when it’ll get worse again. And then better. And then back to bad. And then better. And then,eventually,it’ll all be bad all over again… That’s something I can say from my own experiences,unfortunately.

I’m a fighter by nature,grown in a family of strong woman,but I also have a fragile side,which I don’t show too often but sometimes I guess I should – just enough to let people know it’s not always as perfect and nice as it seems to be from other people’s perspective.

Here,I’ve said it.

In any way,what I’m trying to tell here in a very weird and twisted way isdon’t do anything to yourself without thinking about it clearly. Because really,is there a way back after? There isn’t,as sad as it is. And it will get better – and I’m not saying it won’t get worse again within a few weeks,months,years,but all we  can do is just hope that by the time the bad stuff will come up again,we’ll know a better and more responsible way to handle them.

SUICIDE IS NEVER THE ANSWER. UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCES. Like,EVER.

Who knows,maybe eventually we’ll get older & wiser,or some shit like that.

Alexa has spoken.

Peace.

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5 thoughts on “Sometimes being a teenager makes you wanna die.

  1. cipher046 says:

    I’ve always looked towards that Robert Frost line about how life just goes on and its given me strength. No matter how shitty I feel, I will feel better later. If I do something that makes me feel really ashamed,I remember that I’m still going to laugh really hard someday soon. If my romantic endeavors are dashed and I just want to crawl into bed and wallow in the feeling that no one will ever love me, I know its going to be easier tomorrow, and the day after that and the day after that. Before I know it, I’ve equalized and I’m right back to where I started and as long as I’m making an attempt to surround myself with things I love and enjoy, I’m going to feel as right as rain again soon. As long as you live, there are possibilities.

  2. I thought about that same line on the exact same date!!! What sorcery is this lol 😀

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