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Sometimes being a teenager makes you wanna die.

“sometimes being a teenager makes you want to die.”

I heard this phrase on AWKWARD and actually thought it was kind of powerful.

‘Cause really,sometimes as a teen you do want to die – without even concidering the awful and sad effect that it’d leave on your beloved ones,friends and all other people who care about you – because sometimes,just sometimes it gets too much. It just does.

I’ve been there,I’ve felt that.

And you know what,I try and try to go on and pretend like I never think of those things – knowing that I would never be powerful enough to cut my own life like that – but in fact,I do. Everyone does,from some point!

I am sick and tired of feeling the way I do and I feel like that pretty much every week, at least once. You see,the funny thing is,it does get better. You know how they say “time heals” but what they don’t tell is that when it does get better,there will eventually come that moment when it’ll get worse again. And then better. And then back to bad. And then better. And then,eventually,it’ll all be bad all over again… That’s something I can say from my own experiences,unfortunately.

I’m a fighter by nature,grown in a family of strong woman,but I also have a fragile side,which I don’t show too often but sometimes I guess I should – just enough to let people know it’s not always as perfect and nice as it seems to be from other people’s perspective.

Here,I’ve said it.

In any way,what I’m trying to tell here in a very weird and twisted way isdon’t do anything to yourself without thinking about it clearly. Because really,is there a way back after? There isn’t,as sad as it is. And it will get better – and I’m not saying it won’t get worse again within a few weeks,months,years,but all we  can do is just hope that by the time the bad stuff will come up again,we’ll know a better and more responsible way to handle them.

SUICIDE IS NEVER THE ANSWER. UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCES. Like,EVER.

Who knows,maybe eventually we’ll get older & wiser,or some shit like that.

Alexa has spoken.

Peace.

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The meeting: Aftermath

The good news are,I survived. Woohoo! Honestly,when I wrote that post yesterday,for a split second I truly thought “what if he’s a serial killer?”

And then I also thought,if I die,who will notify my Facebook and Twitter friends?

But that was that,really. By the time I got out of the house,I was full of positive thoughts and tried my best to keep it that way,at least untill I get to the place we were supposed to meet.

So,there’s not really much I could say about this… meeting,because that was really what it was,a meeting and nothing more. It wasn’t a date because it didn’t really feel that way… Is that bad?

And I honestly thought it’ll last longer than it did but ofcourse,the mother nature had her own plans and soon enough a storm started and we were basically running for our lifes to not to get either soaked or struck by lightning. Which we didn’t – phew! – but that was close.

In any way,these 35 minutes were pretty nice,I mean there’s nothing bad I could say about it other than that most likely,we won’t be meeting again. At least not in a date-ish way anyway.

But just to calm you guys down,he wasn’t a maniac (at least he didn’t seem like one!),he wasn’t 50 either,in fact he was exactly the same as in his profile picture,which I have to say was releasing.

Needless to mention,I had like tons of make-up on my face for this meeting. Seriously,next time I go out,I’ll go all natural and sh*t. If he won’t like me like that,his loss not mine. Right?

After this meeting,I already know that whoever I go on a date with someday,I will want to sit down and talk because

a) walking and talking is kind of exhausting and b) I just want to experience at least once in my life the way how people date in the movies – you know,the caffeterias and drinks (okay,I don’t drink but just go with it,alright?) and talks and romance and stuff like that…

You know,every girl,and it’s not just me,I mean every girl deserves a fairytale date once in a while,where the guy would take you out to some nice place,be a gentleman and make you feel comfortable the way you are.

So,I guess I’m still waiting for that one beautiful date to happen. But untill then…

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WANT TO BE HEALTHY? THERE’S AN APP[LE] FOR THAT!

You know how those people always complain –

  •   ”Oh,I wanna be healthier! Should I put this burger down?”
  • “I wanna look like Miranda Kerr on a diet!”
  • “I’m so stressed about my figure that I can’t even eat a BigMac today!”

People,it’s summer. Let’s face it,it’s too late to go on a diet now,because I’m pretty sure you’ll only gain some visible effects from it arround the time Jesus will resurrect. And really,what’s the point of starving yourself? Love your body and embrace it as it comes,because – and you can believe it or not,but either way this is true – if you love yourself,others will,too.

Seriously guys,just eat an apple and go lovin’ your life,because that’s the only one you’ve got.

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